Apathetic

well.. i am felt into apathetic mode which equivalent to moony condition.

there are so much things to bother me.

i am tiring for everything.

How wish i could at home now.

or go travel around.

wherever

11/11/11

Great

A DEEP BREATH

I am leaving soon from KL..

thanks to Air Asia to provide cheap-est tickets for my group..

what we gonna to do

is truly dont have any ideas yet..

but. Smurf-xacly that we need to relax..

to escape from the busyness and packed city

Even though what i get from weather updates doesnt show really good

but

Who cares ! God will definitely make a way where there seen to be no way

And i Smurf-ly believed that God will make a NICE and SUNNY day for me as well

I lives for God so i choose to walk in Him

FREE OXYGEN, HERE I COME !

OPPPsss.. You Shouldnt focus on the 18 SX DOT..

and

Just realize that

that time I am SLIM ( not consider Skinny yet XD )

*Guilty - ING

Hu Hu

30 Days for Muslims

又开始为马来族群祷告了

今年就像往年一样

要为他们来祷告

一般而言，穆斯林不明白：

• 耶稣是弥赛亚，人当顺服祂

• 耶稣有能力赦罪

• 耶稣复活，战胜了死亡

• 耶稣有能力胜过邪灵

穆 斯 林 认 为 耶 稣 是 一 位 伟 大 的 先 知

他所传讲的是伊斯兰较早期的信息

根据古兰经的说法，他们相信耶稣是神的弥赛亚

但通常对它的真义

毫无概念

不知耶稣就是神为全人类设立的受膏王和救主

因此，我们要为他们祷告

释放神的自由

破除宗教的辖制

脱去骄傲的捆索

没有怀疑的相信

*第一天*

忍耐

我的心，称谢袮

虽然

很多不顺利

虽然

回报不如我想象的

虽然

很想放弃

但是

我还是要称谢你

我期盼我也知道我的信心一定能经过考验

并生出忍耐来

使我完全并毫无缺欠

The Father's Heart

When the walls close in around me

Let Your glory light the darkness of my night
When the suffering's all that I see
May I walk with You by faith and not by sight

On the throne of sweet surrender
I have nothing but to offer You my life
Greater love I have not found it
Oh by mercy You have eased this troubled mind
Open hearted I will search and I will find
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hillsong/the_fathers_heart.html ]
Chorus:
Whoa
Sin is broken
The lost now chosen
The Father's heart
X2

Humble king You go before me
By Your grace I stand for everything that's true
Through Your Son I am made worthy
There's no other who can love me like You do
And forever I keep running back to You

Whoa
Sin is broken
The lost now chosen
The Father's heart
X3

Sin is broken
The lost now chosen
The father's heart

You reign
You reign in all the earth
Whoa
X6

I am so so desire to have a father's heart desperately..

trying to be a godly man, just like what Jesus did..

to love my brothers.. to love my sisters....

I truly still in the way of learning that..

to surrender..

more accurately is obey to Him..

with all my heart by faith but not my limited eyes sight..

As Jesus said,

“ I pray not that thou shouldest take them out of the world, but that thou shouldest keep them from the evil.” John 17:15

God, help me to have a father heart like You.

A Calling

Is Saturday night, after my cell group gathering even though there were only 3 ppl, but i still giving thanks to Lord.. there is not left me alone in His way.

After then, i really get reminded and i been got a clear calling n a light burden which i willing to obey and to bear from my Lord that to help CG to grow and to transform them from a christian believer to a truly Jesus disciple. I had believed that with His strength and presences, there is no doubt to fulfill His will and let all of them to encounter our Lord one by one, face to face.

Of cause, I KNEW there is no any SHORTCUT that to achieve this vision without any efforts and also sacrifices. WAO.. SACRIFICES is really also a GIANT in front and sounds so heavy and tough, but I remembered that hows the Jesus sacrificed Himself in a tough-est and heavi-est way that we could ever imagine for me past 2000 years ago, didnt u? there is nothing called as HEROISM exist in God's Dict. I Thanks Lord that I have have a team as Moses, Aaron & Hur in Oxodus, i expected we r going to grow and to work together. Honestly, I truly, desperately, wanted all of you can be same fighting spirit for Him with me. There is no more SAFE ZONE in this world. There is no more SAFE ZONE in our acres ministry. In our most critical and last end moment in this world, did u caught what God's will ? Isnt it God want us to follow Him by bearing His cross and to left down ourselves? I still mentioned that there is no any SHORTCUT. I always believed that, we cant WASTE His mercies and graces, in other words, we CANNOT & NOT ALLOWED to waste His mercy & grace. And, I really prayed to God that not to HONE us like Job in bible that God took away all Job's belongings and to sharpen him in such way. So, i need all of you in both mentally and also physically supports. Evil, it might use anything to distract u, lies, busy-ness, works, tons of tiredness and etc.. but we fear NOT. Matthew chapter 4: 1-11, Jesus passed all the tests from Evil not by himself, but He knew God's will clearly and His willing had helped Him to achieved and completed His greatest salvation to us. Lastly, my bros & Sistas, think clearly, you r no more outsider since u believed in God. So, plz, keep ur passion, to Him, there is no other words besides OBEDIENCE along this way to see His face.

Let us pray,

Oh Lord, help us.. help our team, we need ur presence and also ur wisdom to help us to know ur will clearly. Help us Lord, to obey u as much as possible like what Jesus been. To help our cg, we gonna put all of them inside your hand, we knew that sheep will only recognized their shepherd but we still need to help them get closer to your side to hear you. Oh Lord, help us in our studies, workings, relationships, and our ministries.. we knew we need to sacrifice, we knew there might lots of distractions, but we fear not. We gonna continuously seek for Your Will and complete Your tasks by ur name and strength. Thanks Lord, We need more and more Unity from You, help us, sharpen us.. Thanks Lord, we proclaim that by Your Strength, once we obeyed, we willing to commit, God, plz to bless us.. through our life, financial, family, works.. just to honor you, Lord. Thanks Lord, We prayed in one heart and in Jesus Name, AMEN !

Thanks all of you. Dont feel hesitate respon to me that you caught it ! Have a nice and blessed night.

New Day !? Bad Day !? What Day !?

is Thursday..

complicated feeling..

1st.. Give thanks that my lab work back to usual..

the air con was fixed.. means i can continue my lab work soon..Thanks God & thanks UTAR..

it is New Day to me.. No more lazy moment.. No more Snake period..

i need fight for myself and my God..more efforts, sweats and tears.. until across line of success..

However, there was a short episode happened this morning that made me feel bad..

Some fello snatched / stolen her BB in a crowd of people in the morning..

it did spoiled my mood.. I did feel FRUSTRATED and &#(!@*&^(*!&@(*&%!@ ..

(* Sorry to my God)

I am not really to blame her.. but.. I need more awarenesses and carefulnesses from all of my friends and especially Her..

I am worried.. unpeaceful feeling surrounded my mind..

I tried my best to help.. I called a lot of phones looking for helps as well..

but.. it seems like God OFF all the gates i can contact with..

I am Strained , Upset , Nervous .. coz i cant do anything..

i cant get back the phone.. i cant settle down my mind..

i cant cool down as my friend advised ...

Until.. i Prayed to God..

"God, Plz help me to settle this kind of stuff..

i feel that i am strengthless.. i found myself in panic..

God, let me always positive in you.. Even though it is HAPPENED ..

but i need to learn to give thanks to you that no one get hurt..

(It really tough to give thanks in such situation)

Lord, I need a spirit of comfort come into to help me not to be an anger person in such situation..

Help me.. and help her as well..

Proclaim that what Devil Stolen, Destroyed , & Killed.. return in 7 times ..

In Jesus Name i Prayed, Amen "

The prayer did comforted me .. even though at last the phone had shut down by THAT FELLO..

but.. at least the anger.. the nervousness.. had gone..

I still remembered one of my friend said..

You Christian a.. actually praying just a motion that to strengthen yourself psychologically..

the Faith which you guys emphasized just a reason to make yourself in positive mind..

Ok.. I forgot how i reverted to her.. but..

but it's TRUE only if u admit the existence of God..

God did comforted us IF WE REALLY PRAY TO HIM .. Psychologically !

God did made us positively minded IF WE REALLY FAITH TO HIM .. Psychologically As Well !!

Without God.. there is no one called as Comforter..

maybe can through friends, family, relatives, your beloved...

but.. it's too short.. i means the period.. it's hard to sustain ever lastingly..

So, i choose to live under His existence..

I learnt to praise Him in every circumstances i faced..

I learnt to worship Him until my last breathe and see His face..

Thanks God..

A song that sharply touched into my heart..

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